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Long Time Hello To Everyone
03.06.06 (1:52 pm)   [edit]
Life Suxs but i actually felt like getting on the computer for once and wanted to say hey and make new friends say hey to the old ones and yeah. Send a message add me to your friends i would appreciate that and i would show some love back. I will also try to get on more...ttyl
 
its been awhile but who cares
09.21.05 (11:55 am)   [edit]
i havent really been on cause ive stayed in my room and did nothing but hurt and cry and cause pain to myself. i really dont ever feel like getting on the computer or watching tv or nothing. i dont even feel like leaving my room. ui dont know when ill be back on either.
 
Noone at all. Im alone and hurt horribly
08.08.05 (3:54 pm)   [edit]
My friends all turned on me a few days ago leaving me by myself. Even my best friends left. Today i found out they just acted like my best friends to find out stuff about me and tell everyone. I was in tears when my friends told everyone all my secrets. My life was wonderful until now. I cant believe they all lied and betrayed me and just did what they did. I will never have a best friend agian after this. I cant deal with this pain and sadness. I only have one friend and she isnt always there. Shes only there when she can be. I know i can fully trust her. I still cant believe i lost all of my friends and best friends just like that.
 
08.08.05 (3:43 pm)   [edit]
 
Blah
08.07.05 (8:46 am)   [edit]

I went to church at 8:30 and we got done at 9:45 or 9:55. It was interesting. People at my church are funny and act like 5 year olds even thought there like 70 yrs old. Anyways. I didnt do much today. Just another one of those boring whatever be lazy days. Whatever i cant complain. School will start soon. Well im gonna go and do more nothing.
 
in my own world
08.06.05 (9:25 am)   [edit]
im just daydreaming. i like my own world better than this one. i spend most of my time daydreaming in my own world.
 
*sighs*tear*
08.05.05 (4:43 pm)   [edit]

Im a bad ass but i have feelings to. *tear*
 
I got hit on by my cousins husband and i need a little help.
08.05.05 (11:14 am)   [edit]

It didnt really scare me because family was around but he checked me out alot. He looked at my chest alot and my butt alot. He kinda sat close to me when my cousin got up to help her mom. We were outside and he kept messing with my hair even when my cousin pushed his hand away he kept doing it. I was on the phone and he asked for the phone and he talked to my friend not scaring her or anyhting but told her he was my boyfriend. I had open-wide eyes when he said that. I was like i dont think so. My friend believed him and then i had to tell her a bunch of times he wasnt. Then she believed finally. I walked passed him a few times and he looked at my butt. I was talking to my friend about my abs and my stomach and he was sitting right beside me and i have no idea why. I lifted up my shirt but not up real high. He starred like crazy at my abs and stomach and i told my friend that im still the kinny person i am and he nodded his head until i put my shirt back down. It looked like he was ready to drool. When they started to leave he looked at me until my cousin said bye and waved i smiled and waved. I sat down and thought about all the crap he did and wondered if he found me attractive. He did so much to make me think it but i didnt want to think it. Im not scared about it but its my cousins husband. Why would he look at me plus hes much older than me. I hope he doesnt find me attractive because the next time might be much more scary than this one. Should i be scared or should i ignore it and not worry about it?
 
worthless post
08.03.05 (2:37 pm)   [edit]
I so bored and tired right now except i have a conversation going with someone or i think i do...anyway ive been spending weeks doing nothing and waking up sometimes with no one home which i love waking up to no one home. No one is home till about 12:30 or 1:00 and its all good. Im so tired right now though. I might go to bed really soon. Nevermind im going to a party. Guess thats gonna be my night. Well i dont feel like getting ready right now so im not. Ill start getting ready when they get here. Hahaha like they will care anyways.
 
I want to be closer but theres no future
08.03.05 (10:50 am)   [edit]

I have been talking to this guy for awhile now and me and him have gotten to know each other really well. I want to be closer to him but theres no future. He gets kinda lustful when he sees me and it kinda scares me. Hes alot taller and stronger than i am and i could be easily under his every command. I want to stop seeing him but ill call him here and there just to see how he is doing. Ive been hurt once before because my best guy friend found me attractive. He got close to me a few times cause his feelings and lustful thoughts got in the way but he never did I dont want it to happen agian. I feel invaded for one and i have this fear ill get pregnant. I dont want anymore guy friends that have those types of thoughts about me. It scares me. I cant do it and i wont. If i see any of my other guy friends looking at me in any way i just wont see them anymore. Im a bad ass when it comes to kivking girls ass but when guys get all lustful and all. Im not helpless until im under them not able to move but other wise ill try my best to prevent it. I cant live with myself if it happens agian. Me and the guy that i was talking about in the beginning i wanted to be closer to him but now we have no future. When i say closer i mean good friends and not just friends. I hope his thoughts will change about me. I really liked him as a friend and want him to be my good friend that wont think lustful thoughts everytime he sees me.   
 
...no subject
08.03.05 (6:50 am)   [edit]
its the afternoon and the house is empty and quiet. i woke up to it like this. i wish it could happen everyday. today i also feel depressed. i want something i cant have. i wrote a song but its crap and i dont want people to read it. i wrote it and it made me feel this way. i shouldnt have written it but its how i feel and i write what i feel. this time it made me realize i cant have something i want. i want this so bad i would do anything but it wont ever happen. anyways...beside that im bored and ill probably do nothing for the rest of the day besides think.
 
School starts soon
08.02.05 (1:24 pm)   [edit]
Ill be in school in less than a couple of weeks and alot of people left last year so there will be alot of new people and hopefully it wont suck...All the so called popular girls(the ones nobody liked) left except maybe one and i can say there not hanging out with me. The gossip about everything they can and it annoys me because they cant talk amongst themselves about themselves but anyone who has a problem and they make it worse. They ones last year hated me because i talked to all the guys they liked and they started rumors about me to them and they laughed and said you wish. They got mad but anyways hopefully this year will be better. I will have a few new teachers also so maybe that will be a good thing since my favorite teacher left and wont be here this year. Which was hard cause she was the greatest teacher and no one disliked her. Well im kinda looking forward to school starting cause i want to be with my friends but not looking forward to all the idiots that might be new this year and some of the teachers.
 
poem
08.01.05 (2:01 pm)   [edit]

Untitled


 


i look up at you and i see your lovely face


you look down and see my lovely face


you say you  love me and you hold me like you love me


i feel the touch of your lips and theres no connection


have we grown apart from loving each other


you say you love me but do you really


you say you want me in your arms forever but do you really


i say i love you but do i really


i saidi would stay in your arms forever but do i really


we want to grow old together but should we


 


....To Be Continued......
 
A blonde kidnapped a blondes kid. What happened?(dumb blonde joke)
07.28.05 (9:22 am)   [edit]

Your kid has been kidnapped

A blonde, out of money and down on her luck after buying air at a real bargain, needed money desperately. To raise cash, she decided to kidnap a child and hold him for ransom.

She went to the local playground, grabbed a kid randomly, took her behind a building, and told her, "I've kidnapped you."

She then wrote a big note saying, "I've kidnapped your kid. Tomorrow morning, put $10,000 in a paper bag and leave it under the apple tree next to the slides on the south side of the playground. Signed, A blonde."

The blonde then pinned the note to the kid's shirt and sent him home to show it to his parents. The next morning the blonde checked, and sure enough, a paper bag was sitting beneath the apple tree. The blonde looked in the bag and found the $10,000 with a note that said, "How could you do this to a fellow blonde?"
 
hello...my first post
07.28.05 (6:21 am)   [edit]
Well...this is my first post. I have had friends here before and they liked it so i thought i would try it. I hope to make some friends along the way. Have a great day.